What Happened to Audenby Clive JamesHis stunning first lines burst out of the pageLike a man thrown through a windscreen. His flat drawlWas acrid with the spirit of the age –The spy’s last cigarette, the hungry sprawlOf Hornby clockwork train sets in ‘O’ gauge,Huge whitewashed slogans on a factory wall –It was as if a spotlight when he spokeBrilliantly pierced the histrionic smoke.Unsentimental as the secret police,Contemporary as a Dinky Toy,On holiday in Iceland with MacNeice,A flop-haired Cecil Beaton golden boy,Auden pronounced like Pericles to GreeceThe short time Europe had left to enjoy,Yet made it sound as if impending doomCould only ventilate the drawing room.Splendidly poised above the ashtray’s rim,The silver record-breaking aeroplaneFor streamlined utterance could not match him.Oblique but no more often than the rain,Impenetrable only to the dim,Neurotic merely not to be insane,He seemed to make so much sense all at onceAnyone puzzled called himself a dunce.Cricket pavilion lust looked a touch tweeEven to devotees, but on the whole,Apart from harsh reviews in Scrutiny,All hailed his triumph in Cassandra’s role,Liking the chic he gave her, as if sheWore ankle-strap high heels and a mink stole –His ambiguity just further proofHere was a man too proud to stand aloof.By now, of course, we know he was in factAs queer as a square grape, a roaring queenHimself believing the forbidden actOf love he made a meal of was obscene.He could be crass and generally lacked tact.He had no truck with personal hygiene.The roughest trade would seldom stray to sleep.In soiled sheets he was left alone to weep.From the Kurfürstendamm to far ShanghaiHe cruised in every sense with Isherwood.Sadly he gave the talent the glad eyeAnd got out while the going was still good.New York is where his genius went to dieSay those who disapproved, but though they couldBe right that he lost much of his allure,Whether this meant decline is not so sure.Compatriots who stuck it out have saidGuilt for his getaway left him unmanned,Whereat his taproot shrivelled and went dead,Having lost contact with its native land.Some say it was the sharing of his bedWith the one man nobody else could standThat did him in, since poets can’t affordThe deadly risk of conjugal concord.But Chester made bliss hard enough to take,And Wystan, far from pining for his roots,Gaily tucked into the unrationed steak.An international figure put out shoots.Stravinsky helped the progress of the rake:Two cultural nabobs were in cahoots.No, Auden ageing was as much at homeOn the world stage as Virgil was in Rome,If less than salonfähig still. RegretBy all accounts he sparingly displayedWhen kind acquaintances appeared upset,Their guest rooms wrecked as if by an air raid.He would forgive himself and soon forget.Pig-like he revelled in the mess he made,Indecorous the more his work lost force,Devoid of shame. Devoured, though, by remorse,For had he not gazed into the abyssAnd found, as Nietzsche warned, that it gazed back?His wizardry was puerile next to this.No spark of glamour touched the railway trackThat took whole populations to the hissOf cyanide and stoked the chimney stackScattering ash above a vast expanseOf industry bereft of all romance.The pit cooled down but still he stood aghastAt how far he had failed to state the caseWith all those tricks that now seemed so half-arsed.The inconceivable had taken place.Waking to find his wildest dreams outclassedHe felt his tongue must share in the disgrace,And henceforth be confined, in recompense,To no fine phrase devoid of plain prose sense.The bard unstrung his lyre to change his tune,Constrained his inspiration to repent.Dry as the wind abrading a sand dune,A tightly drafted letter of intent,Each rubric grew incisive like a rune,Merest suggestions became fully meant.The ring of truth was in the level toneHe forged to fit hard facts and praise limestone.His later manner leaves your neck-hair flat,Not standing up as Housman said it shouldWhen poetry has been achieved. For that,In old age Auden simply grew too good.A mortal fear of talking through his hat,A moral mission to be understoodPrecisely, made him extirpate the thrillWhich, being in his gift, was his to kill.He would up as a poor old fag at bay,Beleaguered in the end as at the startBy dons appalled that he could talk all dayAnd not draw breath although pissed as a fart,But deep down he had grown great, in a waySeen seldom in the history of his art –Whose earthly limits Auden helped defineBy realizing he was not divine.
Sunday, March 5, 2023
What Happened to Auden
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